guys, Long time no talk. Sorry about that I've bin running around
once again like a chicken without a head getting this clothing line
on track. I'm also working up a new hobby that will come in handy
really soon when I move back home to the land of 'The Real', New York.
I've bin downloading music and working with my DJ boys to see if I
have what it takes to get the party jumping.
I thought it would be a good Idea to completely disconnect myself
from the hollywood world while I work on the clothing line, develop
my own kid film project, and Learn to DJ. I think most adults are
tainted, especially in Hollywood, so to refrain from ripping my clothes
off on screen, playing the typical sex feen, or girlfriend role, I
prefer to write the kid project I've had in my head since I was 15.
It's time to write, it's what I got into the business for. This way
I can start fresh next year, as a producer. By then, ten more celebrity
people should have gotten DUI's in Hollywood and My mistakes will
be long forgotten, that process has already started L.O.L.. guess
I'm not so different after all. I thought I would Update you guys
on what's going on lately, I know I've bin quiet, for the most part
As far as rumors go of me coming out, I guess curve magazine took
it upon themselves to out me on the premise of their own suspicions.
Whatever, I'm not insulted, I have a big lesbian following, and for
whatever reasons they show me love I'm never going to shun, disrespect
or neglect anybody who shows me genuine non-psychotic Love.
But I will Say this, to put words in someone's mouth and place people
in categories affects them for sure, especially in this business.
I don't know what the intent behind the curve magazine cover was.
I wasn't informed of it, I had no Idea they were planning on using
my image to sell magazines. By the way I only got kicked out of five
schools not six.
Look, I guess what I'm trying to say ultimately is that, if I wanted
people to know what I do with my Vagina I would have released A sex
video a long time ago. Yet i haven't done that. You know why? Because
extremists can rarely be mediators, mass communicators, or chameleons
for that matter. I have bin an extremist in my personal life, Yes.
Yet I have never really over stepped the boundaries consciously in
the public eye. I have really focused on specific types of films for
that very reason, I don't need to be limited by judgmental labels,
especially in a society ruled mostly by an MTV A.D.D. mentality. See,
I even labeled, It's almost second nature to the generation Y culture,
and what about the popular culture groups that buy up all the US Weekly's,
In Touch's, Hello's And the readers of sites like Perez Hilton.com.
If I were Ellen I may get away with: ' The I'm Gay' level of exposure,
but I'm not a comedian, I like men; ( real One's Anyway) and I've
only bin in this business for 7 years not 20. Years of recognition
can give a person lots of leverage especially if you have many years
of positive recognition under your belt. There are certain things
that can close doors between a celebrity and certain audiences. Especially
in a world where walls are constantly being put up by people seeking
comfort and groups to belong to. There is so much out there, over-saturation
of music, media, Agenda News, war, political drama, high school prom
drama, image drama, religion drama, Bully drama. All this drama is
caused by one thing, not understanding the true meaning of communication
and the real power behind it. It's tough to learn, I'm working on
it myself, but when people come out of nowhere and put words in my
mouth or call me Gay, they should really think for one second How
they could truly affect my life by doing such things. You don't know
what producer, director, would be husband or future audience member
may be influenced by these opinions and media content.
I want to communicate on a worldly scale, i don't care if your a bigot,
highly religious, gay, poor, rich,stupid, or intelligent, i close
no door when it comes to my media work. Some people, ( I call them
'the sheep People'), are highly susceptible to outside influences
and suggestions, Especially that of recognizable media channels. These
people may make up most of the worlds population. They may not want
to even watch a film I produce, direct, or star in, because of Mediocre
Rumors produced by insect sucubus media hounds looking for a quick
buck. Who knows, I could have inspired his kid with a kids flic I
produced, i could have done a female drama, that a girl would have
felt empowered by, yet she didn't go see it because her religion says
to 'steer from the queer', or the kid didn't see it cause highly religious
Poppa doesn't want anything to do with films made by Michelle Rodriguez
that DUI, Dyke, Misfit. I am free spirited enough to understand 'the
keep it real be free' and 'The I can't care about everything they
think' factor, yet I'm not stupid to the powers and influences of
communication and I've screwed up enough to see the various repercussions
of miss- communication. So All I say to both the audience and Media
is to be mindful of what you say and do simply because Karma is real
and you reap what you sow.